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You and I are both women. That night, we are strangers standing at the bus stop. A man arrives soon after we do, and tries to make conversation with us. He’s insistent. He’s pushy. He looks threatening. I’m scared and I see that you’re scared too. We try to rebuff him. When the bus arrives, he also hops on. You and I sit together because the bus is almost empty. He follows us to our seats. He continues to try to get us to talk. Personal details. Are you students? Where do you live? When he leaves after 40 minutes, you and I are so relieved that we start laughing. You’ve been glancing at your cell phone like me. You’ve been worried that he wants to take the same train too.
Later, we get on the train but we continue talking. We talk for over two hours. About our problems and our plans. Our earlier experience makes us open up. Just a little before the train arrives at its destination, you bring up your girlfriend. You look at me, in that moment, with a wary, fearful look. And you wait for my reaction. I realize I’m familiar with that look. I’m a queer woman of color too. I look the same way when I bring my girlfriend up to another person for the first time: distrustful, fearful, waiting for rejection.